World Cup fever!

Flying Penguins

Well I haven't updated this thing in a LONG time. I think I will now.

I need a job. Apparently nobody wants a guy who can work any hours, any day of the week. Hmmm


The ALMS raced at Salt Lake City today. Amazing track from the looks of it. But I can't wait for when my dad, uncle, and I go to the Road America round of the ALMS. Audi, Porsche, Ferrari, Aston Martin, Panoz, and BMW. Can't really get a better lineup for that in racing cars. Lexus should be there also. All 3 of us really have a crazy fun time there every year, so I can't wait.


College is on my mind, but I try to force it away. Summer is soo much better. I'm chompin' away at all my racing and soccer videos on my computer, so hopefully in a week or so I'll have a ton of room on the laptop hard drive. Runs sooo slow at the moment.


I love strawberry yogurt. And cereal. And the grocery store Kawolski's.


Later peoples.

The Adventure

I wanna have the same last dream again
The one where I wake up and im alive
Just as the 4 walls close me within
My eyes open up with pure sunlight
Im the first to know
My dearest friend
Even if ur hope has burned with time
Anything that is dead shall be re-grown
And your vicious pain, your warning sign
It will be fine

Hello here I am
And here we go
Lifes waiting to begin

Any type of love it will be shown
Like every single tree reach for the sky
If youre going to fall
Ill let you know
That I will pick u up
Like youthful lie
I thought this thing
I cant replace
Everyone was working for this goal
Were all the children left without a trace
To come back as pure as gold

Hello here I am
And here we go
Lifes waiting to begin
Tonight
Hello here I am
And here we go
Lifes waiting to begin
Tonight
Hello here I am
And here we go
Lifes waiting to begin

I can not live
I cant breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I cant breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I cant breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I cant breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I cant breathe
Unless you do this with me
I can not live
I cant breathe
Unless you do this with me

Hello here I am (do this with me)
Here we go
Lets go life is waiting to begin (do this with me)
Hello here I am (do this with me)
Here we go
Lets go life is waiting to begin (do this with me)



The college experience it is.

Well college starts for me in 4 days. For all of my friends it will be the start of the 2nd semester, but for me the start of college. I'm pretty nervous, but that is to be expected. Actually the only thing I'm nervous about is track. I just hope I do well and make friends in it. I'm also a little nervous because I have no idea what I want to major in. I can see myself doing something in business, geography, teaching, computers, and more. I wish I knew at least some subject than I might want to concentrate on. Oh well. This first semester should go pretty good. Not taking too many hard classes. Calc 1 should be the hardest, with Theology I'm guessing to be the boring one. World Geography and Understanding Music and Culture to be the easier or more interesting ones. Living in a dorm with some randon person should be an interesting experience. I know I won't ever get bored, with my trusty laptop. Thank God for my laptop. Can't wait to play Raquetball with Kevin. Should be fun. Stupid ROTC screwing with my mind.

I can't wait until this summer, mainly because I'll be back home, all my friends will be home, I'll be able to go places with them, my brother and I will be going on a road trip to Washington, I'll have a job at Best Buy again and making money, my family will be going up to Duluth again, and my dad and I will be going fishing a lot. That will rock. Well, heres to an awesome final two days of freedom at home. Woooooo. Buca De Beppo Saturday night here we come! And Pro Kart Indoors!

Well, 2005 is done. For me, it definately had its highs and lows. The two main highs would be me graduating, a point in my life that I didn't think would come, but it did. The whole summer I worked out and went up north with my family do Duluth. I kept looking forward to Europe, my 2nd high of the year. What a trip that was. I will remember that trip with my mom the rest of my life. Incredible. Anyways, since then, although I've had a job, and family is well, I've been worrying a lot lately, and more just stressing out. Typical feelings for a teenager before starting college; at the end of January. It wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for one thing, getting the NROTC scholarship. When I think about it, getting it has been good and bad for me. Decisions, decisions; do the program or not do the program. Do different life paths. I'm still going to the University of St.Thomas, which is an awesome school, academically and athletically. But I can't stop thinking about what I want to do with my life. Getting this scholarship has forced me to rethink my value's and beliefs and interests. For those of you not familiar with the scholarship, it would mean I would have to go cross town to the U of M, like 4 miles away, to the NROTC center, a couple times a week. Not sure if this would interfere with sports, like track and football. I would go on 4 week cruises on a ship during the summers of my college years, starting in 2007. Parents are leaning towards both sides, mom with me doing it, and dad with my not doing it. I just want a sense of direction. All these years I've been dreaming, dreaming big. Now to apply these dreams. Usuallyl you enter college with a vague sense of what you want to major in or have for a career, but most students change several times during their college years. For me, I almost feel I would have to justify with a really good career to not do the NROTC. But that program is only for certain people. Some do it for the benefits, like having it pay for all of college, or for just something to do. Most its for a sense of duty to their country, which I don't have, with our president and all. The time commitment involved would be 4-5 years active at least after college, which I'm not too keen on doing. I'm not sure what I would be doing it for, other than getting leadership skills. I think I keep thinking about is my thoughts on being a teacher. My dad is a teacher, a darn good one at that, and I think I would be a good fit as a teacher, because I like the feeling of teaching and helping others, especially if its something you know a lot about, and enjoy. Doing the program I basically wouldn't be able to get a Masters Degree is something. Well I could, but I wouldn't get it until I was about 30. I would have 4 years of reserve duty after active, which I've been told I wouldn't have to do anything, like do a 1 weekend a month thing or something like that. I wouldn't have to go anywhere; they would just have my name on file, and call me up if they needed me, but they usually don't call men up. But with the politial climate seemingly to heat up in the future, with Syria, North Korea, and Iran all doing something to piss off our government. I don't want to be the wuss or iron-headed one just because of something that might or might not happen, but its a very real possibility, and I don't want to be a part of it. I see these Marines die everyday on television and in the newspapers. Of course, The Navy is different, and safer, but terrorists are thinking of new ways to attack. Why can't we just have peace? If only I haden't of got this scholarship in the first place. I would have been able to concentrate on my first semester of college, and that would have been that. But getting this has screwed up everything. Its driving me crazy. If they would have accepted me the first time around, things would have been different, and I probably would have done the program. I just want to make my parents happy, and also pursue something I'm 100% fully committed to. I want to explore my options. After signing on after that first year in the NROTC program, I'm in, and can't get out, unless we reimburse them for whatever they payed for. St.Thomas is expensive, but I got enough scholarship money. I worked for it. I took the ACT 3 times, and got a 28. I want to be successful and happy at whatever I do. I feel immense wait on my shoulders. When I start that first semester, the journey begins. To live life is to change the world, or to change a person. Some rambling yes, but it needed to get out. Everything will be alright. Woop de woop smooP!!!

Hope you all had a nice New Year's, and wish you all a prosperous 2006. Keep having fun! And listen to Coldplay.

One of my favorite race cars of all time, the Porsche 991 GT1 Evo 98 

Lamborghini Gallardo 

The new Ferrari F430 

I was actually here. Yeah you better believe it.  

I'll take two please... 

A kid in a candy store... 

Mmmmmmm....delicious 

2004 Ferrari F1 car I believe 

Me and the entrance into the Galleria Ferrari 

Pista di Fiorano 

Oh man, its Fiorano test track.  

Entry into the sacred town of Maranello, Italy 

Sacred ground it is. Le Mans, France 

Pure Heaven 

I learned two days ago I got the NROTC scholarship. The guy said it listed the U of M as the school it applies to, but St.Thomas was my first choice, and their part of the program works in conjunction with the U of M, so idk. It would probably require me a couple of days a week to go across town to the U of M campus to the ROTC center there, which would suck. I'm not sure I'm into that. I'm also not sure on how long I have to decide to accept it or not. This ROTC program would pay for my 4 years of college. I would have to major in something dealing with science of course. After college I would serve 4 years on active duty, and would then spend 4 years on reserve after that. Such a long time. I keep thinking on what job I would want to have after that, but it would probably take care of itself when in the Navy. Do I want to stay in Minnesota? Or would I care to live somewhere else? Do I want to keep traditions going that I've had in my life so far? One job I've thought about doing going the Non-ROTC route is being a teacher. Not exactly what subject to teach, but it would be at high school level. The feeling of teaching kids your interests, in tomorrow's tech filled world seems really appealing to me. It would be immensely rewarding, thats for sure. Of course, once I get out of college, I would basically start teaching almost the same stuff for the rest of my career. Well sort of. Would there be chances to teach or try new things in life? Should I go out into the world and go beyond before I settle down into a career? My dad never got a chance to do that. My mom basically has been travelling all her life though, so thats good. And she likes her jon. My attachment to Minnesota seems high, but should I make a point to live somewhere else? I've been trying to think of other careers and jobs I would want to do or be interested in, but nothin' much has been coming up. Thats what college is for. Going the Non-ROTC route would allow me to explore more options in college for sure, so thats another route. Another thing to deal with is world politics in the future. North Korea, Iran, Syria, and China. These are all dangerous countries, and I've got a feeling something or another is going to happen with one of them. I've heard most NROTC guys don't serve during their reserve years, but with these countries, there's bound for something to happen. Up to 8 years in the Navy doesn't sound appealing. I would rather have a job, an assignment, or something else that would take about 4-5 years of my life after collage than spend it in the Navy. Of course I would go places, but I'm not into the danger that goes along with it. There's thrills in life other than the Navy, I know. I don't want to fight an enemy that could have been avoided. I don't want to fight one that we created (i.e. the "war" of today).

I just want to make a decision and go on from there and deal with it. I know we all have immense potential. I hope I use get to use all of mine.

When I see it, I'll understand.

My awesome new dog Winston, the Duke of Winchester. This is him playing in our yard. Man can that dog run.  

They both autographed the poster. Alex Zanardi wrote, "Hi Tom!" Yeah!!!! I am so going to keep this in a safe place from now on. Back then it wasn't that big of a deal to me, so thats why it looks ruffled.  

A poster I got when my dad took me to Target when I was younger to see these two drivers, who at the time I didn't know. They were Jimmy Vasser, and Alex Zanardi, a driver who today amazingly is still able to race, and race well.  

Kingdom Come

One... Two...
Still (Steal?) my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time, my time has come
Let me in, unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way i’m going
I don’t know which way i’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you i’ve waited all these years

For you i’d wait til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you’ll come and set me free
Just say you’ll wait, you’ll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way i’m going
I don’t know what i’ve become

For you i’d wait til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
Say you’ll come and set me free
Just say you’ll wait, you’ll wait for me
Just say you’ll wait, you’ll wait for me
Just say you’ll wait, you’ll wait for me